my ranting wall...

- december 8th, 2024 (pasted from my twitter)

its insane, maybe even stupid or delusion or something idgaf really but to act all like genuine and giddy and shit one moment and then just act like nothing happened the next is repulsive and ew and yuck. its especially frustrating when this is like a constant like if i dont feel wanted and i dont feel like im needed i will not interact. i refuse to look like some fool in the face of another when it comes to desperation. people like the idea of things, not the real person. ok so maybe its cool to relate to someone with these interests and etc etc but its so much better to listen to someone talk and talk about things youre completely clueless on, something they're so ever passionate about.

- december 10th, 2024

politely, if it's something thats easily fixable yk like having homework or whateves pls dont complain abt it when youre sitting on your phone and not actually doing it. like youre being lazy.